Dear, Diary; Love Chris ... Pt. 2

My world has spiraled out of control. It seems that the more I try find some or other form of happiness, the faster the walls around me close in on me. All I want is to find contentedness within myself - yet all I manage to walk into are doors leading to nowhere. They say varsity's the best times of our lives - but I've known more heartache and suffering than joy over the past two years here. Someday, it wall all be okay. That's what I keep telling myself. On this very day, however, that last sentence means absolute toad-shit to me.

Annabelle and I are still friends - although it pains me seeing her with her lover. My academics have deteriorated at a very rapid pace, and I cannot for the life of me remember the last time I was happy. I've tried - but I honestly can't.

But it's like I said, someday it will all be okay.

Love,

Christopher.

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