Beautiful Flower; take me off...
It feels as though I have not been honest in the longest of times yet again. Truth is that I truly love her with all my being; and every woman I wind up with in the interim is naught but a distraction from the inevitable fight for her heart. I see it in her eyes that she wants nothing but to be with me - but it's excessively complicated and regardless of what I try do or say, I'm very likely to push her further away. I cannot for the life of me tell her how I feel because she is likely to laugh it out. I love you. I just wish you felt the same way sometimes. Even though I know you do, it would make it so damn easier if you just said it so I know what to do next.